The Wisdom of Emotion

Bear with me, I'm doing my best...
You wouldn't be gaming nature...?
That life force that knows best how
its creatures will develop, we think.
You suffer because humankind is
gregarious and acceptance is vital to
the satisfaction of life with companions
and to be shunned and mocked runs
counter to the kind of emotional needs
we all wish fulfilled. Please understand
I am happy for you that dark thoughts
of self-harm no longer cloud your
future. Public health dollars so much
in demand to stem the tide of so
many human ills are no doubt well
spent in expanding care and comfort
with your dilemma allowing you to
become 'yourself', no longer male, a
condition of your birth that had never
you say, suited the inner you. Having
always considered yourself female
however, I am struggling with the 
fact that you fathered two children
and now that you have transitioned
those children have a 'mamma' and a
'mother'. Is this all perfectly rational?
Ah, but then, who ever claimed we
humans have ever been rational?