Tuesday, December 29, 2015


Timeless Existence

This perishable year is racing
toward its exit. With its closure
there is hope and regret, perhaps
not of equal measure. Above and
beyond the Universe hums and strums.
A chronology of birth and of death
anniversaries and annulled
expectations occur and fade, a
glimmering wisp of electrified
thought and aspiration. The sphere
that is our refuge is steeped in
conflict, mountains shed their
carapaces, volcanoes their interiors
the seas rise at the command of
wind and stars. There is no 
permanence, hence scant comfort.
Yet Nature assures us existence
is timeless, though mortals not.



Monday, December 28, 2015


Abbreviating Life

It's the truculent truth is it not?
This is no rehearsal, it's here
it's brief and it's final, one
lifespan so swift it leaves
spinning heads to wonder. No
argument though, you cannot
have it all. Not as simple as
making choices. Some harbour
scant curiosity, satisfied with
mundane routine, certifying
they will live a long, quite
ordinary life. Those propelled
consumed and intent on a search
for deeper meaning in existence
those whose senses are excited
and exalted by approaching
the farthest reaches of the world
looking aspirationally at the
vastness of the universe, yearning
to reach and to touch the outer
limits of endurance have bartered
longevity for experience in 
reaching beyond the ordinary.
They spiral inevitably beyond
any but nature's control. It is
they and their ephemeral vision
unafraid of venturing toward
that dark abyss and in the process
willingly abbreviating life.


Sunday, December 27, 2015


Hello Winter

Winter, it seems, mislaid its
seasonal appointments calendar
and completely forgot its
timeless appearance, leaving
this landscape languishing in
the doldrums of late fall with its
dark skies and unrelieved vistas
of resentful forests brooding in
naked misery, their limbs devoid
of wind-shuffling foliage and
forest floors littered with
dessicated leaves grown mouldy
and dank. Finally, the puzzling
delay seems over, as winter
aroused itself for a belated
grand entrance, chilling the
atmosphere with frigid air
orchestrating a night's worth
of snow, then sweeping the sky
clear to shine the spotlight of
winter sun proudly on the arras
settling in for a prolonged visit.



Saturday, December 26, 2015


Robbing the Cradle

It's that time of year again; our
birthdays. He has spent sixty-five
years catching up to me, and he 
never will. When we were fourteen
I reached fifteen before him. My
birthday the end of December, his
the beginning of February, and he
had told me he would be sixteen.
When I called his home his mother
answered the phone and I asked
how it felt for her son to be sixteen
her puzzled voice responding he
wasn't. So there was I, older than
him, and the popular refrain back
then was that girls should never
'rob the cradle' looking for a
boyfriend. I'd hung up, not eager
to speak to him. When he arrived
later that evening, I saw him for
the first time smoking a cigarette.
His nonchalance impressed me 
and the crisis passed. Last time I
ever saw him smoke a cigarette.
And he's still catching up.



Friday, December 25, 2015

Canadian Adventure, B.C.

While I was rolling the sleeping bags, I saw two people cresting the mountain. The breathless young woman mentioned last night’s storm. I said the storm was exciting, but at 58, I’d found the climb exhausting. She laughed, said she was 37 and hadn’t thought she would make it, said she couldn’t imagine her mother even attempting the climb.

We’d left Vancouver for the three-hour drive to Long Peak. Travelling the narrow coastal highway I felt nervous seeing signs warning of falling rocks from the steel-netted cliff face.

On the winding, narrow logging road I worried about squeezing past hell-bent logging trucks. When we finally parked the car dusk was falling in the shadow of the mountain. We camped on the shale beach beside the lake, cooked dinner, admired the clear night sky, and went to bed.

Early next morning we began the drive to the trailhead. The car struggled up the steep rock-strewn road and we soon realized we weren’t about to get much closer. We shouldered our backpacks and began the hike to the forest. Either side of the road grew pearl everlasting and other floral offerings in abundance, and we continually heard the sharp squeaks of pica darting for cover.

At the trailhead the pitch was considerably intensified as we climbed the steep path. At times the scree was so loose, the path so narrow I experienced vertigo observing the valley below. Our son, a biologist, was in his element; my husband was in no distress. Their backpacks were far weightier than mine, but my legs were turning to stone, and my lungs felt like bursting.

Our son had been there before and said we’d soon be reaching the Gates of Shangri-La, a widespread rockfall over which we clambered. The rocks were huge, the area wide, and it took quite a bit of effort to find our way through it. The views, too, were spectacular, looking across from where we slowly wound our way through rocks each as large as a car, a small shed.

Another milestone; a mountain hut and around it, a vertical green meadow dissected by a narrow trail. We peered into the hut and stepped inside. A big old stove, a long table, some chairs, and upstairs a sleeping loft. There was a visitor's book, signed by people who obviously slept over, intent on a longer hike than ours, presumably. A number of the messages noted the appearance of packrats, swifting away with anything not nailed down. Not far from the hut stood a reliable and stout out-house, of which several of our party made use.

“Not long now, Mom!” shouted our son encouragingly. As I struggled up and upward following a well-worn, but quite narrow pathway up the green meadow. Finally, it appeared that he was right; we were approaching what appeared to be another landscape entirely.

A marmot greeted us as we forded a stream shooting over the mountain from a blue-green glacial lake. Above the lake, after our 8-hour climb, we pitched our tent. On a bit of a shelf in the rock. A 'bit of a shelf' is the operative word here. The floor of the tent slanted downward slightly, toward to the lake. At the far end of the lake was the dominating presence of the glacier that fed it, roaring as it melted, for this was late August.

On day-trips ascending from our camp we discovered other, smaller glacial lakes and glaciers, some blooming with red algae. We crossed other rockfalls and accessed crests where we ate lunch and gazed over unending peaks across the Stein Valley.

On one of these excursions clear skies turned suddenly dark; a thunderhead began its journey toward us. We scrambled to descend. Thunder, lightening, great gusts of wind, sleet and rain pummelled our little tent, with us huddling inside, as the temperature plummeted, but it stood fast.

When the storm finally subsided, we began to think about something approximating an evening meal. Everything around us was completely drenched. And it was, by then, quite dark. Suddenly, we saw what looked like a flare across the valley, on another mountain top, opposite to where we sat. And as the flare grew, and we understood it to be someone's camp fire, we set up a loud cheer. Obviously heard on the other side, since we heard a faint response of a cheer from them.

(Made me wonder if in their distant proximity, I was as private as I thought myself to be, squatting over a fissure in the rockface, half-hidden behind a knobbly shrub.)

We slept soundly that night, though waking occasionally. I kept thinking we were going to roll off the side of the mountain. In fact, I shifted myself sometimes, with the feeling that the slant was compelling me in a direction I had no wish to go in. And when we awoke, it was to the rushing sound of the melting glacier, at the end of that fabulous blue-green lake below us.

The clear skies of the day before, that had made yesterday such an adventure, had given way, when we awoke, to a completely overcast, bruised sky, threatening to dump once again. We made another morning excursion after a good hefty breakfast of pancakes and tea, and mandarine oranges, scrambling over the rockface to find yet another rosy-crusted glacier. Returning to our camp site, with the threat of rain undiminished, we decided to break camp and descend.

As we descended the valley I felt good and brave and happy post-adventure, yet anxious anticipating the car-sized rocks at Shangri-La, the steep, narrow defile through the forest. The extent of my surprise (and deflation) cannot possibly be imagined as, halfway through Shangri-la we passed a young man with a paniered Labrador, then a family with two young children making their way up the mountain, happy in their enterprise.

How Canadian can you get?

Thursday, December 24, 2015


Nature's Scruples Awry

Without so much as a backward
glance to expectations born of
long experience through precise
season-appropriate events, winter has
abandoned tradition deciding on a
complete and bizarre change of
wardrobe. Some natural force in
an extreme of hubris has convinced
vain winter that white does not
become its visual glory despite much
evidence to the contrary. Winter felt
compelled to dress in shades of 
grey and green and to preen as an
entirely new phenomenon of 
nature's coquettish attitude of what
you see is what you get, take it or
leave it, her moods always and
timelessly prevailing. The cheering
section is loud in praise as wild
animals continue to graze the
landscape and humans make do 
by substituting golf for skiing,
happily foregoing snow shovelling
and sharpening their unbounded
gratitude in El Nino's balmy breezes,
sumptuously moderate temperatures.



Wednesday, December 23, 2015


Compromise

Well yes, we're fairly pleased
with the little fellows. Mind
they do have a robust sense of
entitlement but it is leavened with
an air of fairness though they're
not entirely averse to compromise
as in they feel it is fair to their
aspirations that we concede and
compromise. So they agree to
suffer the ignominy of our
offering them dog food, never
mind its sterling quality, as long
as we also render unto the master
race their just due. They have
magnanimously negotiated their
just due in exchange for agreeing
to keep household peace, and we 
are duly grateful. Therefore choice
tidbits of whatever we presume to
eat openly in their presence must
be apportioned; to each his due
in this progressive household. And
all, they assure us, is forgiven.



Tuesday, December 22, 2015


I Am Cherished

He promised a lifetime ago
that I would want for nothing.
Now, sixty years later he asks
what I want and I tell him nothing
for I have long possessed everything
I could ever want. He responds
predictably, bringing me all he
believes I should have, awaiting my
response, no longer surprised but
grateful that his goal is to please
and delight me, so I am pleased
and I am delighted, for did he not
promise when we were younger
than our grandchild is now that
he would always care for me?
Who rubs moisturizing cream on
my back after a shower? Who
cleans my eyeglasses before I can
place them on my face? Who scans
my medications to ensure they are
always up to date? Do I not cling
to him and tell him that he is the
answer to my wants, just as when
we were so young I responded to 
his vow of forever caring for me
that I would allow him to?


Monday, December 21, 2015


Just The Facts

She stopped the squad car on the
highway shoulder. The small white
bundle of fur wagged its tail and
she scooped it onto the passenger seat
informing the unfazed little animal
that he was her gift, an appeasement
offering for the little old look-alike
that broke her heart, an incurable
wanderer who has never come 
back, lost forever. Her five-year-old
would have faith in her mother
restored, and she would herself
regain a warm cuddly dependent.
It was clear the sweet creature
sitting trustfully beside her had no
objections. As an officer of the law
she had ruled; love begets trust
and trust engages love. So be it.
No harm done. And everyone gains.
With the possible exception of a
young woman returning home 
for the holidays in a school break
from her studies, anxious to be
reunited with her companion dog
who had ventured out in search
of the very soul yearning for him.


Sunday, December 20, 2015

Rest In Peace

The photograph of a young
smiling face arrests attention.
Why do people peruse obituary
pages? Perhaps not deliberately.
Born 1977, died 2015. Why?
How? From complications
resulting from living life
his own damn way, you read.
Oh well, worth the effort, then.
Read on: he gave himself the
equivalent of a Ph.D in ancient
Tibetan texts, chemistry and
Eastern religions. Lived in
caves in India, Nepal, Brazil
Uruguay, Peru, Ecuador - and
California. Meditating, while
villagers brought to him a
bowl of rice a day. A beautiful
mind, a generous soul. Yes,
clearly this man had no pressing
need to live any longer having
accomplished enough to enter
the pinnacle of awareness of
divine human consciousness.


Friday, December 18, 2015

The Human Condition

There is kinship in acquaintance.
The convention that consanguinity
represents a firmer bedrock
of emotional attachment
than does random and frequent
relations between people is
simply not necessarily so. When
chance and constant encounters
provide the opportunity to
discourse on the personal
those in the torment of uncertainty
for the future, suffering the
crises of failing health, confide
their fears and suffering wholly
trusting that what they disclose
will raise the empathy of another
and understanding will flow to
give comfort. It is a little thing
we do, to proffer genuine concern
for the welfare of others, but its
effect a powerful message of care.



Thursday, December 17, 2015

 

Feigned Winter

Infinitesimal globules of opaque
moisture occlude the atmosphere
sodden with unending rain.
This has been a strangely different
emerging winter devoid of
winter's calling cards but for days
interrupted by early dusk and
the absence of migratory birds.
Not absolute as some choose
unwisely to remain within the
still-green landscape touched with
the austerity of naked trees. Yet
weather so mild prevails sufficient
to entice shrubs to blossom and
garden perennials to restlessly 
stir above the moist, unfrozen soil.
Wildlife whose instincts tell them
of the need to hibernate still
forage where snow normally 
blankets the forest floor. Twilight
snuggles itself into the afternoon
joining the mist rising from
watercourses and valleys and
all too soon falls night's closure.


 

Wednesday, December 16, 2015

 

The Windy Woods

It's an ill wind that blows
bellowing its vile temper
through the atmosphere
sending ragged washday-grey
clouds scuttling in a grim sky
preparing to shuffle aside the
grey for bruised-black alternates
pregnant with freezing rain.
Blasting wayward birds in
flight, tardily setting southward
their course rudely off by
struggling air miles. The
wind's assault sends tree
masts swaying, clacking in
audible distress against one
another, finding no comfort
in close communion, sending long
dead branches from bared
canopies downward, probing
dessicated trunks penetrated
by disease and insect predation
punctured by woodpeckers
to topple the gentle giants
collapsing none too gently
in an agonized moan to the
forest floor, hauling along for
good measure thriving 
neighbours, creating a stricken
cemetery of wind-felled victims.



Tuesday, December 15, 2015

The Barking Mutt

They know what they know
and they know that they know
and heaven forfend what they know
be challenged. So none do. Once is
always enough. They, on the other
hand, scenting opportunity
make hast to challenge the
stated opinions of others with
the effluvium of their superior 
knowledge, brooking no response 
as legitimate, making it quite 
clear that the last word will always 
be theirs. Somewhat like annoying 
little dogs with their size-related 
inferiority complexes that 
surface reflexively as belligerent
appraisals expressed in snarls.
The little dogs' behaviour merit 
pointed and gentle discipline. The 
sniffing last-worders, icy silence.



Monday, December 14, 2015

Beware The Abyss

They are of their time and their place,
 for today is their history. Today's 
prophets, as with those of antiquity
are denied, their dire prophesies
denounced; worse, ignored. Yet
they are not hermits with tattered
garments, gaunt faces embraced
with flowing beards and hunger-
trembling bodies, but once-respected
academics, philosophers, writers.
Above all among them those whose
position in the inner circle of
intrigue, fanaticism and violence
should lend credence but does not
for what they so passionately describe
appears as from minds demented
and as such unassimilable, lacking
veracity. They are not wild-eyed
zealots, nor threatening, but
give voice to the infiltrated presence
of same biding time and as they do
the chasm grows wider, prepared to
engulf the vulnerable and oblivious
in a final paroxysm of surrender to
inevitable conquest, stilling dissent.



Sunday, December 13, 2015

Expiry Date

What a pleasant surprise, an
unexpected meeting in the right place
but the time off for too many years.
There was the familiar smiling face
puckered as mine was in pleasure
accompanied by the same
rescue dog we had last seen
all of us slightly worn with age.
Also there, another dog, this one
complete with male companion
a nice looking man, gentle like her
in appearance. As we hugged close
her so-pretty face close to mine
why the deep lines of care? This
single mother an aid to elderly
clients, her blond springy curls
tossing with verve and inner joy
the wellspring of contentment
reflecting genuine care, that care
etched deep in wide blue eyes and
a mapwork of creases. New male
friend caring for her welfare and his.
Her world of loneliness eased, so
why the pain glimpsed in the depths
of those blue pools? Puzzle solved
as she softly spoke of her 26-year-old
son awaiting a lung transplant, expiring.



Saturday, December 12, 2015

 

Dawn Awakens

Dawn urges the dark of night
to abandon its perch
sending fingers of light
to probe my bedroom
until that light expands to
a burst of gold illuminating
the entire interior and
me, under my counterpane
where the fog of night
still nestles within, my
thoughts slow to gather, in
a confusion of resistance
from the deep comfort of
sleep, as though rehearsing
for a steeper, deeper oblivion.


Friday, December 11, 2015

 

Guide To The Perplexed

We are all entitled at times to our
moods, and Nature no less. It was
clearly a strange weather day, this. So
conflicted with uncertainty, it began
with rain, morphed into sunny skies
enticing us with unexpected balmy
breezes on an oddly mild day to
embark on a prolonged, carefree
woodland perambulation, amazed
that instead of snow packing the forest
floor, an abundance of long-fallen
yet-colourful foliage entertained the
appraising eye which, lifting skyward
witnessed deeply dense cloud
formations re-assembling, somewhat
hastening our tread, but not so much
we failed to stop and chat with 
other hikers as entranced as we by
this peculiar day, nor bid our little
dogs not to tarry playfully gambolling
with others of their tribe as puppies
will do. And so, the patter of a
shower sped us on, courteously
restrained until we gained entrance
to our home and happily exulted
Let the rains commence anew!



Thursday, December 10, 2015

Gauntly Taut

She is a very nice person
entirely rational, mother of
two older teen girls, setting an
example for their well-being
pursuing their higher education
committed to living lives wisely
to extract from them all
opportunities to learn, experience
and to prosper. Cheerfully and
intelligently signing into a
social contract of forward
thinking leading to the
momentum of critical action.
None of which are as puzzling
as the drive to constant
immoderate physical workouts
to maintain a punishing schedule
of competitive exercise straining
toward exhaustion of endurance
in a well-toned body, taut and
wired, so thin as to be deprived
of a bare essence of stored
energy, consumed by action
before it might pad her epidermis
leaving bone and sinew and muscle
on the cusp of malnourishment.
Is the goal some arcane view
of self as fit to resemble 
a macabre, living skeleton?
It has been superbly accomplished.


Wednesday, December 9, 2015

 

Neighbours

These are your neighbours, now
grandparents to children as young
as their own were when you first
knew them. Some have become
firm friends, others have
disqualified themselves from
that inner circle to remain firmly
acquaintances, but all are like
close-bound residents of a
small village whose moments in
life become public knowledge
by consent of the inevitable
or by design. Now the common
interest is the afflictions of
implacable aging as all are
bemused by the little-noticed 
alterations in appearance, where
grey is the mutually shared common
denominator. That, and the growing
litany of hip-and-knee replacements
heart surgeries, catastrophic fall
recoveries and post-surgical
treatments for an encyclopedia
of diseases. There, on the street,
where neighbour meets neighbour
each sighs to the universal refrain
of time and tide's impatience.


 

Tuesday, December 8, 2015


The Peaceable Arras

As the grey curtain of dusk
falls over the remainder of the
day the frantic gathering of
small wild creatures whose
instinct has endowed them with
certain foreknowledge of
winter's imminent arrival has
dwindled, they withdrawn until
dawn arrives. But wait, two
laggards, a lone dove alongside
the most assertive of red squirrels
remain in a sudden oasis of
tranquility, each unconcerned
with the presence of the other
each focused on their elemental
need to continue foraging
and a state of amity is called.

Monday, December 7, 2015


Feed Me!

They evoke in me a piquant
recollection of earlier times in
my life's progression as mother
then grandmother to impudent
and impetuous offspring
whose declarations never
strayed too far from 
oft-repeated plaints such as
"I'm hungry!", and "I'm bored!"
and the unforgettable defense
of "not my fault", all now
repeated daily albeit without
voice as two little creatures
make abundantly clear
those issues are fundamentally
of great universal import.



Sunday, December 6, 2015

 

The Setting Sun

Each day that unfolds is like
none other before it or those yet
to come as each dawn breaks
the dark of the night. As this
day is now closing the portal
of the sky, where that fiery disk
of gases floats sending out its
plumes of fire, bids adieu while
the globe of the Earth turns its
cheek. There in the fall forest
where the days of autumn leaf
toward another winter, the
deciduous trees now bare host 
the golden, glaring sundown
leading to another day hence.



Saturday, December 5, 2015


Young Love, True Love

They tried to tell us we're too young
too young to really be in love.
They say that love's a word
a word we've only heard
and can't begin to know
the meaning of ... And that song
accompanied us in our early youth
when we had just reached beyond
the second year of our teens
and no one believe that we loved
each other, and that a future not
shared would be no future. 
And yet we're not too young to know
this love will last as years may go.
And then some day they may recall
we were not too young at all ... But
now it is 60 years past the day
we were married still teens, and
no one is left to remember their
objections to our young love; the 
obstacles placed before us; all
gone, while we are still here, loving.



Friday, December 4, 2015



The Nursery

Above all, we are acutely aware
me and the nursery aide, that those
fragile orphans must have their
emotional needs met, to know they 
are loved, appreciated and wanted
in the alphabet nursery. To care
for them is a labour of love, a lifetime
devotion. Together, we find suitable
homes for these sensitive charges
where they secure a place for
themselves most suited to their
personalities. They return our love
and devotion by applying their
charming presence and the nuances
of meaning where they are placed
generously offering pleasure to all
who seek them out for their priceless
attributes of revelation, clarity
wisdom and humour, occasionally
lapsing into gravity when occasion
demands. Giving recognition where
it is due, the poet who has invested
endless time and passion along
with an acute admiration for those
orphan words made whole in
congenial company, offers sincere
homage to the nursemaid-muse. 


Thursday, December 3, 2015

 

Weather Report

It is predictable since it is
after all December. What else
are we to expect other than
cold, wind, freezing rain or sleet
and snow? Haven't we been
through this before, one year
after another, all the years of our 
lives? It's a protracted seasonal
process, the graduation from
fall to winter, with nature
throwing in all her little tricks.
Today's surprise was setting out
in a cold, steady rain adequately
garbed for water-proofing
then suddenly a parting of 
dark clouds invited the sun
to add its pennyworth and the
wooded trek became brilliantly
illuminated. So we tramped
about the brightly sodden arras. 




Wednesday, December 2, 2015

 

Grey Rainfog

It is a grudging kind of quasi-
daylight that filters through a sky
crowded with dark clouds and
emits an arcane sense of foreboding.
These are the quiet environs
of a late fall forest where only
the immature ironwood and the
beech yet bear faint vestiges of foliage,
grey and papery. Freezing rain 
has painted tree trunks in shades
of black and grey. Ferns and yews
yet green the forest floor, and
the red wands of dogwood relieve
the grey and black monotone. 
Grey and opaque the mist that
hovers in the distance rising above
the clay banks of the forest creek
to the tapered tops of fir and spruce.
All is still but for a woodpecker
hunt-and-pecking the lichen-
shrouded bark of a dying ash.



Tuesday, December 1, 2015

 

The Delusional Ego

Amazing how people age. It's very
nice to come across those once
familiar with a stab of recognition
though much time has passed and
you might have walked right by
had it not happened they or you
made the connection, memory
triggered by an overheard voice or
the way someone carries themselves 
or some distinguishing characteristic
that forms our individuality. The
shock of surprise, the animated
conversation as you pick up the
thread of friendship reminiscing 
and catching up, chiding one another
for the inexplicable gap, while
discussing updates on family and
work, health and travel. Then the
deplorable state of world affairs.
Compliments are passed as human
affection warms to the other, for
at no time would we confess the 
shock we feel at witnessing how
our friend has succumbed to the
unfortunate hallmarks of aging.
Hard not to view them pityingly,
smug in the satisfaction that our
own genetic inheritance has
favoured us so well and unlike our
friend we have remained trim,
unbowed and unwrinkled, mentally
aware and cerebrally sharp. Sad,
so very sad they have not.