Lost and found is my eureka! blog, my rediscovery of my short fiction and poetry submissions published in literary magazines and university literary journals some decades ago. Interspersed, occasionally, with more recent, hitherto unpublished pieces.
Wind spurts fierce thrusts compelling the snow to drift languidly and mound into voluptuous landscapes while evergreen boughs heavy with snow release great clumps themselves springing to height.
Lazy clouds of snow drizzle the landscape. Falling clumps freckling the grey sky, shifting clouds to pleasure the insistent sun. Shafts of light haze through the forest, firing the snow to silver crystals.
Through the soft and gentle stillness, the staccato of a hairy, red-capped woodpecker. Snow generously comforts a recently-bereaved copse of elm, maple and poplar, naked no longer. Trunks grey, black and brown stippled gloriously-blinding white.
Dessicated, bright orange bittersweet fruit cluster along their vines' chokehold on prickly Hawthornes. Their haws shy against the flamboyance of the others. The creek drifts clear and tinkling over gathered fall detritus now heavily banked in snow.
A raven crosses the undecided sky, its raucous call shredding the silence swift body a black arrow true to its mark. Soon, snow-muted silence regains its imperious reign.
Friday, November 29, 2019
The Last Word
Few among us is capable of reacting with perfect equanimity when our considered and rational points of view are challenged by those interrupting a conversation to make observations of their own that turn the conversation in another direction entirely. Civility does demand the courtesy of listening but it does not insist that one respond. On the other hand if impulse and the conceit of feeling it required to demonstrate your understanding of the situation in the round that response is forthcoming then you deserve the sniping that follows. In the event that the third party is having a very bad day and has turned their cranky mood in your direction the next salvo can be more than awkward and puzzling all the more so when rank is pulled through the medium of academic credentials of which you have none. Yet you respond as civilly as possible only to receive yet another snippy comment far more deserving of terminating the conversation carried out on line. And then you sit back awaiting what can only be another wretched accusation veiled in scholarly comment, planning this time to use wit and condescension that would devastate your interlocutor. You wait. And you await that opportunity. But it fails to arrive and opportunity is lost.
Thursday, November 28, 2019
The Story of This Day
As a short story I don't intend to make it too long in the telling, it's just the way things worked out, one after another when my husband went out to run a few errands and I decided it was time finally to use that nice beef roast so long frozen as we'd focused on non-meat dishes, so this would be a change. Since I had half a head of savoy cabbage waiting to be used I made cole slaw as an accompaniment, and then I recalled that oven-crisped potato recipe I'd seen in last week's 'living' newspaper section so I'd do that too. How about baked apples stuffed with raisins for dessert? And a shredded apple with those carrots in that cole slaw. What might complement apples, my next thought and remembered I'd meant to bake a batch of cookies and why not fragrantly crisp- and-hot gingerbread snaps? Then I stopped to wonder what was taking him so long our little dogs were getting restless for a nice long walk, and in he stepped, sniffing the air and remarking how good it smells in this house. Oh he'd stopped in at Friends of the Library and bought me three good- reading books. And he's stopped in at the second-hand shop and bought two warm and woolly sweaters for me. Off we went finally into a blustery overcast day to tramp the forest trails with our puppies.
Wednesday, November 27, 2019
The Wisdom of Emotion
Bear with me, I'm doing my best... You wouldn't be gaming nature...? That life force that knows best how its creatures will develop, we think. You suffer because humankind is gregarious and acceptance is vital to the satisfaction of life with companions and to be shunned and mocked runs counter to the kind of emotional needs we all wish fulfilled. Please understand I am happy for you that dark thoughts of self-harm no longer cloud your future. Public health dollars so much in demand to stem the tide of so many human ills are no doubt well spent in expanding care and comfort with your dilemma allowing you to become 'yourself', no longer male, a condition of your birth that had never you say, suited the inner you. Having always considered yourself female however, I am struggling with the fact that you fathered two children and now that you have transitioned those children have a 'mamma' and a 'mother'. Is this all perfectly rational? Ah, but then, who ever claimed we humans have ever been rational?
Tuesday, November 26, 2019
Nonnina She Is
Is it nuance, or is it subtlety of a variety too sophisticated for a simple mind to digest? She is the beloved family matriarch whom all hold in deep regard, respecting her every word, and yet there is a chasm deep within of progressive resistance battling it out with a visceral draw of an ancient antipathy stirred by a renascent social climate dredging up closets-full of stealth skeletons that civility stifles. She birthed no fewer than six children, the oldest a boy the rest girls in succeeding years all when she was young and attractive priding herself on maternal skills and doting on them all. All were like herself fecund resulting in numerous grandchildren themselves now raising their own. Her husbands long gone she is alone while surrounded with family, sons-in-law not of the faith yet she, the beloved Jewish bubbe whom all refer to as 'nonna' though none among them bear Italian blood.
Monday, November 25, 2019
Lightening Up
They burden the world with their tedious presence and with a litany of faults so numerous they are inexhaustible, far too many to count and in their aggregate account for the disdain in which they are held and always have been, for who among the world's inhabitants wishes to live among people so cunning and forever scheming that there can be no peace, no rest from concerns that the world may soon succumb to the plots they conceive and strive to achieve to the known detriment of all others. Yet the most irritating aspect of having them live alongside others is habitual whining of being discriminated against as though their manner doesn't invite just that very thing. For they have no sense of humour, none whatever, and among their many other faults is their unforgiving sour sense of entitlement that slights never come their way, even when those they accuse of the age-old bugbear of anti-Semitism inform them that the messages they take to be racist are merely attempts at humour and they really should you know, make an effort to lighten up.
Sunday, November 24, 2019
Thy Brother's Keeper
They are everywhere, in impoverished countries whose cities strain with mass humanity and in countries of the wealthy developed world where technology and industry has created immense wealth yet they roam the streets, eat in the streets sleep on the streets, under highway bridges and passes, fall in love, become violent with one another and bystanders alike peddle and use drugs and die in the streets the growing army of the homeless, named by polite society, the 'unhoused'. Transient lives of gross humanity whom misfortune has led astray and whom the settled and the fortunate regard with empathy until they approach too intimately and suddenly appear threatening, though some can be since they suffer from mental illness and who can predict when that psychosis will spark into rage and claim a hapless victim? They become the enemy of good order their misfortunes failing to excite the sympathy their conditions demand when funding and good intentions fail to serve their needs and relieve society of their oppressive, guilt-inducing, angry presence.
Saturday, November 23, 2019
The Unwanted Gift
Merry Christmas, the veterinarian surgeon said sincerely, after explaining post-operative complications placing our cherished little companion on life support. Distracted, harried, he doubtless meant well. Who after all would wish to face the disturbing vision of small and large animals in mortal distress, requiring immediate surgery from conditions seeming to appear out of nowhere on that date, necessitating the nuisance of emergency surgery? Nowhere, after all, but dire health threats arising from an inevitable combination of old age and genetic inheritance. And dogs are not, after all, human now, are they? So get upset if you must at the loss of a trusting and loving companion, but do restrain yourself and keep things in perspective now, won't you, my friend? In this unfortunate instance it seems the operation was a total success, its outcome, however not.
Friday, November 22, 2019
Human Civility
This is a giant warehouse of a supermarket not at all to our choice of weekly shopping expeditions. Huge, its focus on comestibles but fashioning itself as a purveyor of all types of goods, not merely edible perishables but kitchenware, clothing, toiletries and bedding linens. Its inventory huge and distracting from the need to shop for the pantry. For us, hard goods need not apply and we tend to avoid such places, but yet find ourselves in one such emporium despite the principle of adversity to marketing ploys. We are there, seeking out a simple target of a sole whole food product, surrounded by humanity careless of their expenditures and offerings excessive to any living body's nutritional health needs, no one observing the presence of others, no faces turned toward other faces, no eyes meeting, no tongues exchanging as though everyone lives in a discrete world of their own. As we wait to be checked out my husband remarks on the paucity of cashiers to handle the volume of trade and a woman directly in front turns and with some heat adds to his observation from her own experience. When she soon attempts to shrug into her winter coat and cannot a hand reaches out to guide her into the sleeves and my pride in his courtesy knows no bounds.
Thursday, November 21, 2019
That Heirloom Trait
It is the signal element in human relations that never dies; it holds a timeless place in humanity's lexicon of mass instinctual reaction. It may not be embedded in DNA but it is nonetheless deeply rooted in historical antecedents, a quality embellished and carefully handed down from parent to child its inherent belief so stringently upheld no mere relic but a living testament to that undying kernel of hatred toward a singular group whom a higher power is said to have informed their status is that of the Chosen but chosen for what purpose? Ah, to suffer and grieve, to achieve and to reel back in despair as the weight of the world's malice unerringly identifies them as objects of scorn and hatred whose presence in the world is an affront to faith and decency based on the conspiracies the ancient people concoct as they wend circuitous routes to power and influence, wealth and control. The collective need to stifle such ambitions gives rise to inhumanly-inspired campaigns plotted to destroy the illusion they are human since their destiny is to struggle and overcome obstacles to their own agency, interrupted now and then by hugely successful genocidal campaigns yet they persevere and grind on sharpen resolve and face their persecutors' intent to stem the tide of Judaic presence.
Wednesday, November 20, 2019
Denizens of ScrubLand
Mere moments before the blinding orb of the sun, brilliant and immense in appearance as it began its night shift sinking below the horizon, casting a broad shimmering pink band across the landscape as dusk entered was suddenly gone. The night sky so recently vacated of dark clouds crowding the heavens was transformed into soft blue velvet. And onto that winter nightscape was imposed a scattering of silhouetted wide-winged birds their black outlines barely visible against dark blue velvet with numbers steadily increasing as an ever-increasing horde maintained their momentum to create in that moment of drama a murder of crows crowding the sky, silently stippling the ceiling of the world with their destination-focused flight from a remote urban wasteland of warehoused goods to a nearby forest of wasted scrub characterized by twisted and gnarled deciduous bush whose growth had long been compromised by its unfortunate position in a city's hinterland.
She is young and vivacious though as a mother of two young adults, not that young in fact. Yet so much in life is so obviously relative and to the grey-haired woman beside her, the pretty, charming woman was young and gregariously extroverted, so much so that their brief companionable proximity serendipitously served in its warmth to gift the elderly woman with the sweet illusion of herself, renewed in youth. Fittingly, or not, the younger woman wore casual exercise pants and as the two ambled side by side in the woods, the legend, coyly, perkily appearing on her derriere read, "Naughty". Delighting her companion no end.