The old
man sat in the centre of the tent, glowering. His striped robe lay
carelessly on his shoulders, the waist-belt untied, his bare legs ropey
with lean muscles, dark with hair not yet turned as white as his flowing
beard. He hooded his eyes and brooded, watching the three women, his
wives, as they bustled about the tent nervously. He followed the
movements of the youngest one, Rebeka, as she fluttered around,
re-arranging his bed, the coverings, drawing the old matted straw out,
piling it in a heap under the watchful eye of her mentor Hagar, who knew
just how Ab-ram liked his bed. Not too stuffed so he found it
difficult to rise from its depth in the mornings and not too brittle so
that pieces chafed his skin through the loosely-woven fabric that
covered it. As though sensing his mood their voices, often raised in
light banter, were hushed and only simple directions, often-repeated
reminders, punctuated the uneasy silence.
Rebeka, he thought, had
been a poor choice. He should never have listened to his brother. A
closer alliance between the two houses yes, but not through Rebeka.
There was that about her that invited men's glances. Lithe and
handsomely dark, the flowing robe that covered her could not hide the
suggestion of lush flesh which lay beneath; she moved too sensuously,
her eyes, dark and large, promised that which she could not give.
Little wonder, then, that I-sak walked so often by the women's tent.
Not to see Sarai, his mother, but to furtively watch Rebeka. How far
had it gone? Ab-ram wondered and flushed with a new wave of anger.
His
eyes glazed over and he momentarily forgot the women, recalling
yesterday's confrontation with the tribal men. E-nor and his brother
Mar-duk, he was certain, were the instigators of the growling protest
which, left unchecked, threatened to become a revolt. They had always
agitated for the keeping of swine. They had shorter memories and less
respect for tradition than he. They scorned the ancient malediction
visited upon their great forbear, that "Thy sons' sons will consort with
swine!", the meaning of which could not be lost on those wishing to
perpetuate their line. Sheep were their mainstay and so it would
remain.
He had promised them a sign, some significant indication
that the new God that spoke to him in his trances would undertake to be
their sole totem. And now he wondered, could he induce the God to do
this thing? To protect and enrich them, bring them to a state of
comfort, a belief in His ineffability?
A spasm of pain washed over him as his stomach rebelled from the morning meal, and he passed wind.
A
titter from the women brought him back to the present and he glared at
them. "Go! Be you gone with your women's airs and your nattering
patter!", he ordered, raising himself and towering over them.
Rebeka
looked worriedly at Sarai who motioned the other two to leave. They
quickly gathered up the discarded straw and in their haste tripped over
their robes, leaving a litter trail behind them. Ab-ram kicked angrily
at the strawbits, raising a fine layer of dust. "And you?" he said to
Sarai.
"Soon enough", she replied calmly, rising to stand before
him, her wizened face still carrying traces of her fabled beauty,
questioning his anger. He sighed, lifted his hand to her shoulder and
pulling her close, rested her head on his chest.
As always her
touch, her steadfastness soothed him; her calm manner instilled him with
confidence. The past intruded; even when he ordered his sister to
become his wife, his wife to be transformed to his sister, she had
remained by his side. Fear of the hegemon called Faro caused him to
disown the flesh that had cleaved to his, yet she had never rebuked him.
She had followed him from Chaldean Ur acknowledging him her master in
all things. Now, these late years should have brought them surcease of
discontent, of troubling decisions.
If only their son, the image
of his mother in her young days, were not the tribulation he was, a
weight would be lifted. But Sarai would hear no ill word of the boy,
and he would not make her unhappy.
"Is there something?", she
asked, drawing back, her dark eyes searching as no one else could,
within his. He looked away uneasily, fearful that she could read his
thoughts as she sometimes seemed to do.
"No thing is wrong", he said finally. "Other than I must persuade the others that our way is the way and the others are false."
She nodded. "What will you do?"
"Wait for the voice again. It no longer visits my dreams, so it is to the man-thing that I must turn for advice."
An
obvious revulsion washed over her face. "That abomination!" She spat
three times to ward off evil - not believing in its efficacy entirely,
yet not wishing to leave herself vulnerable to unknown malicious powers.
"Wait", she said. "Yesterday I found a ring of the mystic growth
under a large Terebinth. I dried them and ground them and will bring
them to you in a fermentation."
He agreed not to consult his
oracle, the newborn manbaby Rebeka had borne, her first. As was
customary, its head had been taken, anointed, and left in sacred oil to
speak when advice was needed of it. The women always complained, but no
leader of men could be without the Teraphim. Every few years a new one
was needed as the old one gradually disintegrated, becoming one with
the holy oil.
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As
the day wore on, the heat became more intense and activity ceased.
Men, women and children made for the still, yet cooler air of the tents.
The fragrance of myrtle rose on the sultry air. Children's chattering
voices were stilled in afternoon sleep. Ab-ram, alone in his great tent
since the morning, still sat and thought about the problem facing him.
Nothing had been resolved and he was tired of trying to summon the
wisdom of the years reputed to be his, to his aid. He rose and
painfully slid his feet into the thongs of worn leather sandals, then
awkwardly bent and fastened them, his fingers stiff with disuse. But he
was unwilling to summon one of the women to help. He was wearing now a
chiton of dazzling whiteness, the linen fine and kind to his tired
flesh.
Walking out of the tent, he stood for a moment in the
furnace of the still air, momentarily blinded by the fierce intensity of
the sun sitting high now in that great bowl of the sky, and merciless.
It had been a long time since he had been foolish enough to expose
himself at this time of day, but he had been overcome with a sudden
compulsion to walk through a nearby olive grove. He flung the cowl over
his head and strode laboriously over the dun, cracked earth, a lizard
scuttling out of his path, frightened from its shelter under a nearby
rock.
Lifting his eyes past the great cypresses throwing their
meagre high-noon shade over the line of tents, his eyes followed the
long swoops of two vultures over the nearby hills. The hills appeared
verdant and sheltered from that distance. He wondered about the sheep;
whether a lamb had strayed.
Arrived finally at the grove, he cast
about for a likely resting place, selected a gnarled old specimen, its
leaves defiantly glowing the splendour of its life's aspiration despite
the rotten state of its trunk, bleeding sap, inviting invasion from
hordes of insects, and under it he slid to the ground. His back resting
on the trunk, Ab-ram thrust his legs before him and watched a retinue
of termites busy with the work of moving a dead unfeathered fledgling
inexorably closer to their nest. He felt revolted at the dry shrivelled
thing that had once held life, teeming now with the large insects
determined to use it in the perpetuation of their own cycle. "And so it
is with me", he sighed. "No sooner than I relinquish my authority will
my enemies feast with Termagant on my rotting carcase."
The
question was, how to persuade his people of the rightness of his vision?
How describe to them the fleeting image come to him of the dark
unknowable that was the Divine Spirit? Elohu, the Spirit of the One,
the Only. That something, some gesture, some consecration would be
necessary to bind him and his people to the Great Power, that Seminal
Being, was obvious. Some sign was paramount to his being finally able
to convince his reluctant followers - but what could that sign be?
The
intense dry and burning heat seemed somehow magnified in the grove.
Surely, it would have been better to have remained in his tent.
Somehow, though, he felt, there was a possibility of communion out here,
with the Divine Spirit. Not here perhaps, but on higher ground where
such a one might reside, closer to the heavens. The hills? He raised
his eyes and looked to the hills. For sacrifice, what? His
bell-wether, a faultless and spot-free white specimen? Even so, not
enough.
Ab-ram's eyes narrowed, his head seemed to be bursting
with the fierceness of his concentration. Suddenly the answer was
simple. Solving both his problems, temporal and spiritual. Ah, but was
the intent without blemish? Who, he convinced himself, would ever
know? His heart thudded, then skipped like a wild bird attempting to
escape confinement.
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I-sak
walked behind his father, an early morning mist dissipating before them
as they approached the well-worn pathway leading to the nearest and
highest of the two hills. Mountains, they called them, but they were
merely tall mounds on the arid landscape.
"My brother was
aggrieved that he was pressed into service. He mislikes tending the
sheep", I-sak observed mischievously, glad to place his brother Ish-mael
in a poor light; flattered that their father had this time chosen him,
the younger son, to assist on this solemn occasion. Ab-ram nodded,
noting the slur, but choosing this time to ignore it.
The trail
wound tortuously around the hill. I-sak footsure, the shepherd, and
Ab-ram, long unaccustomed to the demand, stumbling on the gravelly
pathway, stopping now and again to draw breath, his chest fiery with the
effort. Strapped to the sides of the ass were the necessary
paraphernalia - two flasks, gurgling their contents, a large flat stone,
some ground mandrake, a flat bread and cheese for their mid-day meal.
Last, wound in linen, a ceremonial knife of obsidian blackness and a
sprig of hyssop plucked from the foot of the mountain.
"But my father", I-sak had earlier observed, "the sacrifice? Where is it?"
"The Great Spirit will provide", Ab-ram had replied, not elaborating, his face an enigmatic mask.
"But
my father ..." I-sak had begun his objection again - surely it was
best to arrive prepared rather than trust to chance? But a curt "be
silent!" cut him off.
They climbed the slope slower now, near the
summit where the cedars were no longer symmetrical in shape but grew
deformed yet defiant on the inhospitable mantle of rock barely sifted
with soil.
Ab-ram drew laboured breaths, the sound stentorian, rasping his throat.
A
harsh sound above them, familiar yet still startling, tore through
their separate thoughts. Both raised their heads, stopping for a
moment, glad of the rest, to look upon the rusty black form of a great
rook, its harsh beak giving voice to a warning of trespass. The bird
rose into the air, rising toward the pitiless sun. They watched as it
became a mote above them, then noticed that a curtain of clouds, dark
and menacing, drifted toward them, and around it, billowing grey clouds.
It was as though the bird had changed, become dark water vapour and
still stood over them, transformed, watching, jealous of its territory.
But rains, seldom as they blessed the land at this time of year, were
welcome and surely the glaring sun would soon be obscured by the
scudding clouds and give them relief from the oppressive heat.
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They
were shortly at the summit and tethered the ass to a gnarled cypress
where it could feed upon the sparseness of grass. Ab-ram directed his
son to remove the stone and place it on the ground. The sun was hidden
now and its fingers of fire no longer touched them. Still, breathing
was difficult. Silently they both slaked their thirst with wine. That
same wine into which Sarai had sprinkled her dried morels. Already,
I-sak's head was light and he walked with a delicate precision, obeying
his father in the placement of the ritual objects; the euphoria granting
him a girlish grace.
When the hyssop had been placed just so
on the flat stone, and the obsidian blade sprinkled with oil so it
glimmered as with a life of its own, reflecting the dark clouds above,
Ab-ram urged more wine on his son, then sat and watched drugged sleep
overtake the youth. In repose I-sak's face became the youthful trusting
Sarai's and Ab-ram's heart was wrenched with misgiving.
A light
breeze made itself evident, rustling the leaves of the sycamore,
bringing relief to the two figures, one unaware, the other too painfully
aware. Ab-ram looked to the sky and saw it was now completely veiled
with clouds and oddly, the black cloud sat over them still, a dark
squatting thing, unmoving. He sighed, then moved his son with the great
effort that was required, on his back over the stone, and raised
I-sak's chiton to his chest, revealing his naked form.
Ab-ram sat
back on his haunches and took into his hand the ceremonial knife,
rubbed his thumb carefully along its cruel edge. Great Spirit, he
implored, let this be the end of your promises, let this mark the start
of your commitment to us, to my people. No other sign can I think of
that will indicate to you, oh Unseen One, my abandonment of the hegemony
of other gods, my belief in only You, You who will make this existence
finally explicable.
As though in reply, thunder rumbled above him, and he believed.
In
a lesser hallucinatory fog than his son, Ab-ram believed that the voice
that visited his dreams, his drug-induced trances, would utter finally
the words to seal commitment. Even through his euphoria, a thought
given to his sly triumph - ah, even the gods, even the greatest of them
were amenable to flattery, could not delve into the true intent of
homage; this sacrifice. This thought he banished from his mind, angry
at its independent impudence; unworthy of the sacred moment.
Ab-ram
raised his arm and began to plunge, but some thing stayed his intent.
Through the pulsing thunder he could hear a voice. Clearly, he could
hear a voice! Could he not?
"ABRAHAM! HEAR ME! I AM THAT WHICH IS! YWHWH IS MY NAME. DO THOU, ABRAHAM, AS DO THE EGYPTOS AND OFFER HENCEFORTH EVERLASTING PERPETUITY'S FLESHLY COVERING. SO IT SHALL BE A BOND BETWEEN ME AND THINE TRIBE."
Perplexed, thwarted, but awed and frightened by the lush richness, the awe-inspiring command of the voice, the mystery of its emanation resounding through his head, he could not but obey.
Reluctantly, confused and inwardly seething with impotent rage, he nonetheless obediently sliced his son's foreskin, then poured holy oil over his son's body to purify it, and consecrate the offering.
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